Seeking

Classes have now begun and I’ve received my first four sylabi (fun word huh? ) of college.  The busy-ness of orientation is over and college is beginning to feel like.. well college.  I am beginning to invest a little bit more into the friends that I’ve made and especially click with, but there is still that yearning within me to just have people that I can really go deeper with.  I ate lunch with some guys who had gone to Wheaton Passage together, a two week long camping trip before orientation, and they were just talking about how close and bonded they had become during those weeks.  They said that they really saw eachother’s hearts and learned how to love eachother.  Now I believe that my time will come, but the waiting to find friends that understand my heart is indeed hard.  However, when I was reading through Proverbs 4 in one of the Chapels they have scattered around campus, the following verses stood out to me.

vs. 5-9

Get wisdom, get understanding;
do not forget my words or swerve from them.

Do not forsake wisdom, and she will protect you;
love her, and she will watch over you.

Wisdom is supreme; therefore get wisdom.
Though it cost all you have, get understanding.

Esteem her, and she will exalt you;
embrace her, and she will honor you.

She will set a garland of grace on your head
and present you with a crown of splendor.

The beginning of college is a time where it’s very easy to get wrapped up into thinking that you have to have that group of friends that totally understand you.  It’s easy to feel like a loner when you walk into the dining hall and have no one to sit with.   It’s easy to settle for less.  It’s easy to think that the friends you know now are the ones that you have to pursue and spend time with or else you won’t have that group in college.  Reading these verses just reminded me of how God wants me to pursue wisdom and His teaching and then, everything else will fall into place.  Though it cost all I have, I seek understanding, because the things that I consider “all I have” are nothing compared to God.  I am learning to step away from all of the people, to say no to people, and yes to time spent with God because I believe that focusing on Him will allow everything else to fall into place.

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